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2009...MeMoRies Of LifE!!!

2009,Great year with many sad,happy,lonely,heartbroken,excitement,anger,n all de emotions happened and feeled in 09.Its the year where i sat for my SPM.I tried my level best and hope it will make me proud...Tuition was like quarter of my life..ET add maths that i miss it till now!!!Inspiring words by miss Tan really mesmerizing...besides that,maths and bm was also awesome...





School life was hell of greatness...Last year of schooling with the uniforms and the thing that i miss so much is my RC!!!No more bulan sabit member of andalas..The place dat i became someone...Its all 'EX' now...and the yeat i met a wonderful 'GIRL'which i call my wonder woman...it all happened so fast...but we just ended up as gud friends as she was still young and we know well dat we gonna meet more people in our life and certainly will change our pathways of our life..Just deep inside my heart i feel she is my wonder woman that really swept me out of my feet..MEMORIES....

My aim was successfully achieved this year asi planned and im really happy and satisfied with myself..I wanted to make my school RC as a famous and great school that people will talk about,and im hppy that i created many leaders to take over my place...All this while i was thinking that im useless....but when i turn back at my journey of secondary school life i realised that i've actually turned 360...from all the aspects..thinking,appearance.communication,people that i socialize with and everything..A guy that scared to even sit at the front of perhimpunan to aguy that can conduct a camp,persenting malaysia in adelegation to japan,capten for my sports house...

I reallised that i've really forgotten my schoolmates,friends,my lovely meimei,and many of them and even many of my favourite things that i love to do...i feel i was jst too concern on being great and tobecome better and better till not giving myself a rest,peace or even atreat for myself...It was always think,think and think,work,work and work...So now,im having a great break for myself...Relaxing myself,doing wat i love to do and following my desires...

Many lessons i've learned throughout my journey of 2009...one of it was Care about yourself first,before caring about the others...Love comes and goes but frienship doesnt fates..it is true,it is pure!!!i really appreciate it!!Thanks to my sweet bestie that always there for me...always lends me a shoulder to let dowwn my emotions..She is one of her kind!!!thats my sweet PAIn PAIN!!!Thanks GOD for sending her as my bestie that really cares for me...YOU are always my bestie till the last breathe of mine in this earth!!!Thank you Sheila!!!

I really missed my year as an EXCO during 2008...and i dont give a damn on what others say about my EXCO,whatever said and done,my exco is my main priority in RC..they are my family!!!A year that we worked as a team and i know we gonna move on in lives but the memories of 08's will still be in our heart...Sir was in phillipines the whole year and only get to see him few times...I really missed him so much as he's my idol who really made me into a better person...

Lastly,the whole year gave me many lessons and a sad love-friendship experience which im overcoming it now...when time pass by,every thing,every jokes,every silly things,every adventure will become a part of our LIFE history that tickles us from time to time...I guess its a really long post that i've made...so guys and girls whoeva reading this,please forgive me if i ever and ever hurt u by my words or act that leaved a scar on you...learning is anever ending adventure,and i wil be learning and improving myself from year to year....here is a small syair that i made specially for year 2009!!!

Mengapa lagi hati berduka

Saat musik alam mengalun indah

Mengapa lagi jiwa menyendiri

Saat pagi lembut datang menjelang

Bukalah jendela hatimu

Dan biarkan harum bumi masuk

Bukalah pintu jiwamu

Dan biarkan rahmat Tuhan bertamu

Sebab hidup bukan hanya duka gulana

Ada bukit hijau, padang rumput, sumber segar

Yang akan melonjak ria saat kau sapa

Tersimpan padanya kerinduan damai

Tetapi bila hujan turun deras

Nikmati suara dan dinginnya pengusir gerah

Segenap ketentraman terhambur darinya

Karena alam tak memendam dendam

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Biarkan dukamu lelap di waktu lalu

Kita masuki gerbang saat baru

Kita reguk dengan penuh rindu

Karena walau bergegas kita hidup

Waktu sabar menanti walau terbatas

Maka bersihkan diri dari alpa

Dan bangkit bersama fajar baru

A miserable life is going on.....

Here i am kicking out the blog again...Now im really feeling the SPM stress...arggghh.....feeling like killing myself...Everyone start nagging at me to study...friends,teachers,parents and even my sis....wat de fuck?....but its really getting into my brains and now im in kinda in studying mode....

TUTTI IS COMING!!!guess wat???Im really excited ang really looking forward for this camp...XD..as i tell always im always the happiest person to be in a wonderful society...My bsmm....hahaha

Back to the topic....my results were really really bad as is it always be...thinking of my future,is like nightmare to me for now...feel like really got stucked up on this deep fucking shit school....

Anyway,its all the line of fate...have to past this damn SPM and carry on in life...planning to do business....not to forget going college and be someone in life....

a miserable is on the way,
$$$$$$

Wake up blog!!!

It was more than four months i didnt even look at my blog..hahaha...Juz kinda busy with school stuffs...sukan,and BSM marching training and the list kept goin on...headache lorr...but now,kinda ok...haizzz...juz wanna stop everything for a moment and start giving 1oo% for my spm...The clock is ticking and every minute is juz reminding me about SPM...

This few months I really had a great time by training my juniors for the marching,attending sports day training,meeting and alot more...rite now Im juz feeling that i should take a break juz for myself and study more than ussual...aiming for 5 a's in mid year sounds hard for me...coz i really not paying attention in my studies,so full stop for all the activities and marathon for studies...

Rc Carnival!!!

A wonderful sunday....was really fun hanging out again wit my exco08,exco09,and 43....It was the event called RC Carnival...held at PBSM headquarters,Ampang...We gathered at hq and we also went with few school pbsm members...we went in a bus...

Clearly we could say,three quarter of the crowd was my chapter klang members....really had a gud makan and did few activities....

Was really wonderful day...after that,we lepak at hq wif exco09...

Signing off....bye!!

Psssstttt....I love RC!!!

This few days I really had a lot of sweet memories.Well,let me start it from this Friday...I had my Youth wing members meeting and it was conducted by Youth council 09…so I was just sitting among the members which is all form 1 and form2 kids…Very nice to see them and they was really semangat to listen what the ajk was talking at the front… After Padma talked,he intro me to them and all of them already knew me..hahaha….Padma asked me to give a short talk to them…

I really had no idea on what to talk about and I really don’t want to disappoint them by giving a boring speech…so instead of giving a speech, I taught them few tepukan and social wit them…as usuall I will make jokes to make sure they don’t sleep off…they really had fun…later on,deephika and khaleedah divide them into groups and did Dreams presentation…hahaha,feel weird rite about this dream stuff??…well,it was my idea to do it.,Its just a thing of everyone need to tell what is their dream and what they want to learn in bulan sabit…and then they create their group name and tepukan by themselves and elect 1 ketua and setiausaha for their group…..and ended up the meeting with doing few social that I taught them and had a wonderful tepukan war that was really ‘GILA’…

My sweet Saturday started with this stuff called kursus kepimpinan for all the unit badan beruniform and the kelab pengerusi and setiausaha….As I was the pengerusi for Science club,I had to go..Was superbly daaaamn boring…from start till the end, teachers by teachers keep talking and talking. I really wanted to go for my pbsm activity down there…

They were doing a module called DIZZY…when they gave us break ,I quickly went to look for the activity..but too bad it was already towards the end…I felt daamn ‘BUTA’…hahaha…buta means kecewa in my term…hahaha…I saw all the pbsm members was very excited and they also gave prize for the winner…hmmmm,not bad at all….and lastly they ended up with many many tepukan and social…It was such great euphoria….the members asked for more even when the activity already over….WOW,it was really a crowd pulling factor…What is more happier for an ex-pengerusi to see that kind of euphoria….was really happy….

Soon after the boring kursus,I came down and saw my pbsm juniors(youth council 2009 and B-team09)was waiting for me to go makan together…as usuall we went to he restaurant opposite our school…..had a wonderful day with my juniors….I love my Bulan sabit so much….muaxxzzz…..

Hilang di mata,takkan hilang di hati,
Kenangan bersamamu sentiasa ku ingini,

Andai kata hari ini menjadi hari terakhir ku di dunia i

Ku ingin bersamamu hingga hembusan nafas terakhir ku nanti…..


Really really awesome rite???I juz read it from a novel.It is such a great story about love.I already flew back into my 08 dillema…Great year with my Exco…Hmmm,this few days I’m kinda bored coz I didn’t meet with my friends at hq…..whuaaa….Badly miss them…Muaxxzzz and Hugzzz for them.

I had to stay at home and revise for my freaking monthly test and today was BM and BIO….BM was kinda easy,but BIO was kinda killing…So sad to say dat there was no question dat I studied hardly came out…Juz ok ok oni larr…

During assembly this morn ing,as usual the teacers will keep crapping,suddenly my ex prefect teacher that I don’t like the most call me from back…all the students was sitting and when I stood up everyone was looking at me…daaamn malu…when I followed her ,she brought me to one girl that really cant breathe….as I was the exPBSM president I know what is thus all about…the teacher was calling me to help her…I immediately brought her to on eof the nearest classroom and ask her to breathe…I ask her to fol;ow the rhythm of breathing like I does…and she followed that…For few mnutes she did it and after a while she was perfectly alright…then I came back to my place and sat…waz happy to save peoples life…Felt like SUPERHERO!

At last,I found out the girl who I admire her blog so much..She is studying same school as me and I didn’t even know that…huh,what a waste…
First I was talking about this girl to my friend at school during recess and I told her the blog name.after some while my friend went somewhere and brought the girl and introduce her to me...My friend told this was the girl that I was searching for…What a surprise could it be!!!…She is just same school as mine and I don’t even know that…hahaha…had a great laugh and feel satisfied to find who she is…A big question mark was solved…

Was a sweet simple day at school….