YOU ARE MY EVERYTHING!!!!

Your beauty makes my heart skip a beat,
Every time our eyes meet,
Your beauty is my delight
Your beauty knows no height,

Your beauty is in your eyes,
which sunk the deep blue skies,
Your beauty will never fade,
cause you are the best thing that God has made..

Your beauty is like the sun shining in the day,
when i look at you i cant look away

Your beauty is in your smile,
It make a second with you worthwhile
your beauty is in your hair,
Your beauty has none to compare

You are like a tattoo in my heart that cant be erased....

And in this dark harvest of season
My life completely lost all reason,
For which or against to decide.
All lost in a savage, endless tide

In a boat made of hope I sail to tomorrow,
In a winding hurricane made of: light and darkness,
Love and kindness and treachery and sorrow.

There’s a spear, endless, and colossal spear...
Piercing, slashing though my head.
Starting somewhere in heaven, ending somewhere in hell.
Fighting, burning, crying, crashing.
Are the armies within.
In my head they are all thrashing.
On the heaven’s and hell’s whim.
To be light or to be darkness.
A perpetual array.

It’s not merely my choice,
But the choice of the way.
It’s a option of the voice,
It’s a thin line of gray.
Is it a choice forced by fate,
Or a choice to which I myself sway?
But here’s our story anyway….

“Nothing that I do will matter.
As all things will merely shatter!”
All my hopes thus darkness scatter,
As it shoves me a decree.
As it simply wants to win,
And to just take over me.

“Have a purpose, bend the world,
Act out upon your wishes, and ______ will love you a lot”
That’s what light then says to me,
Because it wants to set me free.
Winning slightly over me.

“But this cage of gold so shiny, it will shield you from untrue
And protect you from the odd,
Nothing inside its walls can harm you,
In your own little world!”
Whispers darkness in my ear,
“Only me you should now hear,
And with me you will survive,
And with my help you will strive,
And achieve your paradise,
In illusion’s disguise!
With no hardships and no pain,
Every task you will then tame!”

The light sternly yells at me:
“These are lies as they can be!
If your world is build on lies,
Then yourself you will despise.
And illusion’s paradise,
Will fall down on you.
Crashing, burning, dying, crying are your dreams
And uprooted is your tree!
And no longer will you see
Where to go or what to be!
When you face your final trial, what will the judge say to thee?”

“These are lies and mere dogma,
Based upon the fear of death!”
Darkness then just yells at me:
“You have your right to disagree!
Make a lovely pact with me.
I will offer you salvation,
No more fear or deprivation!
If you would me then just hear,
You have nothing at all to fear.
Since we do not have a soul.
There’s nothing with which to pay a toll!
Sign here, over there.
In the name of pleasure and hope.
In the name of revolution,
Let your path be just a gentle slope!”

It’s arguments are winning over me,
And thus with darkness I agree,
And so I sign the decree,
And with a treacherous and jolly glee
Darkness enshrouding, standing over me
“With the light here once and for all undone
You and I shall become one!”

And so, I enter into the storm of shadows.
As pitch-black as the depths of sea.
Become a mere castaway, amidst the weary crowds.
Consumed by somber, ashen clouds,
With heavens frowning over me.

A storm of ice and fire, dancing all around with a glee.
A ring chrono-storm encapsulating me.
Just like a stove turned up to high degree.
Tearing up roads, buildings, picking up debris.
Into the air it takes me.
My wings have turned to blackened ash
The pacifying, freezing fear taking over
My heart is covered in frost
And all I wished, is to be free…

Tiada Lagi....

Sia sia sudah
Kita jalin cinta
Bila hati selalu berbeda

Sampai kapan lagi
Aku harus menahan
Rasa kecewa di dalam dada

Seandainya kita masih bersatu
Tak mungkinkan menyatu
Walau masih ada sisa cinta
Biarkan saja berakhir sampai
Di sini

Tiada lagi yang ku harapkan
Tiada lagi yang ku impikan
Biar aku sendiri tanpa diri mu
Tiada lagi kata cintamu
Takkan lagi ku bersama mu
Biar ku simpan semua
Kenangan ku bersamamu

A wonderful song by AMY SEARCH..Truly feeling de song rite now......

2009...MeMoRies Of LifE!!!

2009,Great year with many sad,happy,lonely,heartbroken,excitement,anger,n all de emotions happened and feeled in 09.Its the year where i sat for my SPM.I tried my level best and hope it will make me proud...Tuition was like quarter of my life..ET add maths that i miss it till now!!!Inspiring words by miss Tan really mesmerizing...besides that,maths and bm was also awesome...





School life was hell of greatness...Last year of schooling with the uniforms and the thing that i miss so much is my RC!!!No more bulan sabit member of andalas..The place dat i became someone...Its all 'EX' now...and the yeat i met a wonderful 'GIRL'which i call my wonder woman...it all happened so fast...but we just ended up as gud friends as she was still young and we know well dat we gonna meet more people in our life and certainly will change our pathways of our life..Just deep inside my heart i feel she is my wonder woman that really swept me out of my feet..MEMORIES....

My aim was successfully achieved this year asi planned and im really happy and satisfied with myself..I wanted to make my school RC as a famous and great school that people will talk about,and im hppy that i created many leaders to take over my place...All this while i was thinking that im useless....but when i turn back at my journey of secondary school life i realised that i've actually turned 360...from all the aspects..thinking,appearance.communication,people that i socialize with and everything..A guy that scared to even sit at the front of perhimpunan to aguy that can conduct a camp,persenting malaysia in adelegation to japan,capten for my sports house...

I reallised that i've really forgotten my schoolmates,friends,my lovely meimei,and many of them and even many of my favourite things that i love to do...i feel i was jst too concern on being great and tobecome better and better till not giving myself a rest,peace or even atreat for myself...It was always think,think and think,work,work and work...So now,im having a great break for myself...Relaxing myself,doing wat i love to do and following my desires...

Many lessons i've learned throughout my journey of 2009...one of it was Care about yourself first,before caring about the others...Love comes and goes but frienship doesnt fates..it is true,it is pure!!!i really appreciate it!!Thanks to my sweet bestie that always there for me...always lends me a shoulder to let dowwn my emotions..She is one of her kind!!!thats my sweet PAIn PAIN!!!Thanks GOD for sending her as my bestie that really cares for me...YOU are always my bestie till the last breathe of mine in this earth!!!Thank you Sheila!!!

I really missed my year as an EXCO during 2008...and i dont give a damn on what others say about my EXCO,whatever said and done,my exco is my main priority in RC..they are my family!!!A year that we worked as a team and i know we gonna move on in lives but the memories of 08's will still be in our heart...Sir was in phillipines the whole year and only get to see him few times...I really missed him so much as he's my idol who really made me into a better person...

Lastly,the whole year gave me many lessons and a sad love-friendship experience which im overcoming it now...when time pass by,every thing,every jokes,every silly things,every adventure will become a part of our LIFE history that tickles us from time to time...I guess its a really long post that i've made...so guys and girls whoeva reading this,please forgive me if i ever and ever hurt u by my words or act that leaved a scar on you...learning is anever ending adventure,and i wil be learning and improving myself from year to year....here is a small syair that i made specially for year 2009!!!

Mengapa lagi hati berduka

Saat musik alam mengalun indah

Mengapa lagi jiwa menyendiri

Saat pagi lembut datang menjelang

Bukalah jendela hatimu

Dan biarkan harum bumi masuk

Bukalah pintu jiwamu

Dan biarkan rahmat Tuhan bertamu

Sebab hidup bukan hanya duka gulana

Ada bukit hijau, padang rumput, sumber segar

Yang akan melonjak ria saat kau sapa

Tersimpan padanya kerinduan damai

Tetapi bila hujan turun deras

Nikmati suara dan dinginnya pengusir gerah

Segenap ketentraman terhambur darinya

Karena alam tak memendam dendam

Mengapa lagi hati berduka

Biarkan dukamu lelap di waktu lalu

Kita masuki gerbang saat baru

Kita reguk dengan penuh rindu

Karena walau bergegas kita hidup

Waktu sabar menanti walau terbatas

Maka bersihkan diri dari alpa

Dan bangkit bersama fajar baru

A miserable life is going on.....

Here i am kicking out the blog again...Now im really feeling the SPM stress...arggghh.....feeling like killing myself...Everyone start nagging at me to study...friends,teachers,parents and even my sis....wat de fuck?....but its really getting into my brains and now im in kinda in studying mode....

TUTTI IS COMING!!!guess wat???Im really excited ang really looking forward for this camp...XD..as i tell always im always the happiest person to be in a wonderful society...My bsmm....hahaha

Back to the topic....my results were really really bad as is it always be...thinking of my future,is like nightmare to me for now...feel like really got stucked up on this deep fucking shit school....

Anyway,its all the line of fate...have to past this damn SPM and carry on in life...planning to do business....not to forget going college and be someone in life....

a miserable is on the way,
$$$$$$

Wake up blog!!!

It was more than four months i didnt even look at my blog..hahaha...Juz kinda busy with school stuffs...sukan,and BSM marching training and the list kept goin on...headache lorr...but now,kinda ok...haizzz...juz wanna stop everything for a moment and start giving 1oo% for my spm...The clock is ticking and every minute is juz reminding me about SPM...

This few months I really had a great time by training my juniors for the marching,attending sports day training,meeting and alot more...rite now Im juz feeling that i should take a break juz for myself and study more than ussual...aiming for 5 a's in mid year sounds hard for me...coz i really not paying attention in my studies,so full stop for all the activities and marathon for studies...

Rc Carnival!!!

A wonderful sunday....was really fun hanging out again wit my exco08,exco09,and 43....It was the event called RC Carnival...held at PBSM headquarters,Ampang...We gathered at hq and we also went with few school pbsm members...we went in a bus...

Clearly we could say,three quarter of the crowd was my chapter klang members....really had a gud makan and did few activities....

Was really wonderful day...after that,we lepak at hq wif exco09...

Signing off....bye!!